I know what I signed up for when I took my job, but man am I tired.
For me the hardest thing is the constantly changing plans, times, everything - I have no consistency in my life. Part of me loves it, but a bigger part of me is annoyed right now.
Even my workouts have been irregular, which is tough for me, but I still feel like I’m getting stronger - lugging my 35 pound med kit hasn’t quite killed me yet.
At the end of the day I love my girls and I can’t imagine myself doing anything else in my life.
Since the start of season my life has been a blur. Good and bad to that - Good: the semester is flying by and it has been a lot of fun. Bad: I only go home to sleep, I have been eating like crap and my workouts have been super erratic.
Goal for this next week:
- Workout at least 3 times
- Go grocery store
- Cook real food and stop eating out so much
Totally doable this week, just need to plan
This is a summary of college only using two pictures; expensive as hell.
That’s my Sociology “book”. In fact what it is is a piece of paper with codes written on it to allow me to access an electronic version of a book. I was told by my professor that I could not buy any other paperback version, or use another code, so I was left with no option other than buying a piece of paper for over $200. Best part about all this is my professor wrote the books; there’s something hilariously sadistic about that. So I pretty much doled out $200 for a current edition of an online textbook that is no different than an older, paperback edition of the same book for $5; yeah, I checked. My mistake for listening to my professor.
This is why we download.
Spreading this shit like nutella because goddamn textbooks are so expensive.
Ok that may be an exaggeration, but I love my job. Even tho I have been at the field for the last 4 days at 6:30am and stayed til about 10:30pm - I love it. Plus my girls kicked ass this weekend. This was a long weekend with a lot of work but it went by fast and it was fairly easy.
My mom was in the stands with some of my players parents and she commented on how many of the parents said their girls liked me - as cheesy as it is, it makes me happy to hear that my girls say positive things about me to their families.
While talking with another GA this morning we were talking about how we saw our future careers going - in an ideal world I would stay with the team I have now for a while - but since that won’t happen, I think I would stay in the softball world for a little bit, then who knows
The highest I have ever weighed, but I also feel the strongest I ever have.
Coincidence? I think not.
And it’s flippin amazing so far:
- Actually did my reading for class
- No rushing around to get ready in the morning
- Enjoying my coffee
- Taking my time to go workout - once I get there I don’t have to rush - since I have nothing else really planned for the day.
What I have planned for the rest of the day:
- Drink more coffee
- Cook food for the week
- Go shopping for more khakis since you can never have too many pairs
- Do my laundry - cause I actually have run out of clean khakis
- Hanging out with friends…just have to convince them that I really do have time to hang out.
Missed my workout time this morning due to treatments on a couple players after their weights, not enough time to complete my workout and make it to work on time.
The next time I will have to workout will be 8 tonight - I always struggle working out after a long work day. But it’s deadlift day so I’m hoping that is enough to get me to go tonight.
95% of the time, but today was one of those days where I spent a good part of my day questioning why I work so many hours for very little pay. I know part of the reason I was mad was thanks to my boss who said he could only get me paid for 4 of the 11 days I worked over break - which is another argument for another day - and the other part is I have a few injuries where nothing I do will make anything better at the moment. So during my pity party for myself I was reminded of the main reason why I do my job…My girls. I love that they can make me laugh no matter what and I love being around them. During all this I saw a couple other athletic trainers post this blog from another athletic trainer on why she loves her job, it is pretty spot on.
I agree with her list - I love knowing that no 2 days will be alike, from shit that gets said, stupid shit done on the field to different injuries everyday. I love that I am constantly learning, I am always amazed at how much stuff we never learned in classes or from books comes up…but that’s the beauty of it. No one could ever put all you need to know in classes or books, the only thing that can teach you is experience. And the connections with my athletes is awesome, I know some of my girls so well it’s crazy and I love that they are comfortable with me. One of my coaches came up to me and joked that if he ever wants to know anything he asks the athletic trainer as they always know what’s going on with everyone.
So after all this thought I am reminded that I do in-fact love my job and wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world right now!
Good God I have been missing out!
Got a pair as the team was ordering some and got some for me. At first I declined but one of the girls reminded me of several things
- They are super comfy
- I have the legs for them
- Coach is paying for them so I should just get them and if I really don’t like them, give them to someone else
Well I like them! I even look like I have a butt with them…if only it were acceptable to wear to work everyday.
We have been doing a true colors event with the team this week, told me what I already know about myself. Like that I am organized and I like to plan things…nothing ground breaking.
So this morning we had to bring an item that meant something to me, I brought the last line of a poem that was by dad’s favorite and I read it at his funeral.
I did this for several reasons:
- We are supposed to work on our “palest” color by picking a trait we admire and mine was blue and the trait I admire is being personal. I explained to the girls that I love that they can be open and honest with me and I will always try to do that with them - but for me to tell personal details of my life is very hard for me.
- I really love the last line and it brings me great comfort - fit the description of the assignment
- To be open with my team - I cried while explaining my thing - I did not expect that but it happened and I went with it, a few of my girls were crying with me and in that moment I felt very close with my team.
It didn’t completely suck:
- Several of my girls - some who don’t see me much - came up to me and hugged me and thanked me for being open with them.
- My head coach pulled me aside and told me he was surprised that I took the assignment so seriously and that he was happy to see another side of me - he noted that he noticed how uncomfortable I looked while I was talking and called me brave and told me he was happy to have me be a part of the team.
I think I have grown since my dad died, when he was alive there is no way I would have shared something like this with any group of people.